Settling is something that will always be there and it will always be in our brains. Settling is a HUGE part of the decision making process. Now, I have one person in my life that I will always love dearly no matter what because we grew up together. He asked me out and I decided that I could not go out with him. I told myself then and I ask myself now, "I hope you did not let the one get away." I just never knew why I didn't want to go out with him. I just knew in the back of my 15 year old mind that I could not do it. I could not ruin that friendship that could potentially grow into something great. Fast forward to now and I'm seeing him on Instagram, Facebook, and on one of my friend's Snapchat constantly. I can only think to myself, "WOW he looks good" and "WOW I am such an idiot." Honestly I want to cry when I see him. Sometimes I still do not understand why I never went out with him.
I'm starting to see what I was thinking back when I was just a little bit younger. I was subconsciously thinking I didn't want to settle. Like I said, I love him dearly because we grew up together and I think it would have been perfect if we did end up together. I think I didn't want to play it safe. I didn't want to just end up with the first person I fell in love with. A wise women once told me, " If it's meant to be, you will find your way back to each other." I know once he reads this, if he reads this, that he will know who he is. I'm really okay with that because I just want people to know what settling can look like.
It will hurt at first but there is always something beautiful at the end of the tunnel. Settling is something we will all go through. We do not have to actually settle if we do not want to. God will always help us with this. If we pray to him he will grant us strength and he will show us the way to Mr. Right and not just to Mr. Right Now or Mr. Right Then.
I ask you to remember to think everything through, pray to God, and if everything doesn't work out then it will be okay. Do not be like me and look back at that one boy and feel regret. Guess what?!? He was just Mr. Right Then. I'm single, I'm happy, and I am feeling a since of empowerment. Yes I like him but hey maybe will meet again at a better time. Sometimes love can feel so right but it is just the wrong time. I think we need to embrace that and just have hope that one day we will find internal happiness.
So....Please never settle. Do what you think is right (heart, mind, and soul). Chase someone that you deserve and isn't toxic for you. Better yet chase someone who is chasing Jesus. Jesus wants you to have someone who is perfect for you and God will guide you (let him). I know it is easier said then done. Settling is probably one of the hardest thing that I have been through. I have confidence that we all can get through it. This isn't a dating show this is real life and we may not find our happy ending but our happy ending may find us.
Until next time!
xoxo
